Hello lovelies! 😀 Thank your for spending your time with us! When someone stigmatizes you because you are mentally ill, be pissed. Very pissed. Beyond pissed, Righteously pissed – but understanding. Since we are on the topic of mental illness and stigma, one of our favorite movies that tackles mental illness in “Analyze That”. Stigmatizing the mentally ill, sure. Funny, absolutely. It’s ok, you can laugh at this movie while you are
Last night we talked more about something we are calling “Theming”. What we have learned in recovery is that when we echo (Speaking and acting as the target character), we are doing it for a very particular reason. We use certain echos for certain people at certain times, it seems. This was our very complex (but simple) way of communication with others. To express fear, shame, guilt, anger, everything we feel, as people – our life story.
Analyze That captured what it’s like for someone with DiD in the middle of a split and how others can engage with us. “My, myself and Irene” was another funny look at someone with DiD, along with Fight Club and Shutter Island. (Our movie list is MASSIVE, lol – Email us, we will give you some cool titles to check out.)
What we have learned about echoing is that it can actually be a lot of fun! It can be a blast when your spot on as the character you are echoing. We used to entertain our friends for hours becoming these characters. They would say “Can do you do so and so from this movie”. We love to echo with selected people – and what’s funnier is when they echo back, just as in the scene below:
The difference between this scene and reality is, that when you are living with DiD, you don’t even REALIZE that your Tony but your signing West Side Stories all night long and until you catch yourself acting and experiencing life (With all the perceived emotions attached that character, as well) as Tony. It’s insanity time x 3 (DiD) X 10,000,000 (Autism) X 1,000,000 (PTSD) x 1,000,000 (Reactive Attachment Disorder).
Some might say, well if echoing is so special, why share these scenes with the world. The difference is context. If we physically echo someone we have become for the moment, in someone’s presence, that’s what make’s it special, for us. This form of communication is, for us a very intimate act and the remnants of the torture that created us – So to share it with others means sharing the torture too – even if they don’t know it (Neither did we, most of our lives).
Just as the squirrel flicks his tail when he’s nervous, if we echo with you, that simply means you are part of our very small, inner circle and we are very comfortable with you.
This also applies of course, to all forms of echo. Whether it typing a message to you, as echo, perhaps we pop up on your messenger and exclaim:
“You’re talking to me all wrong, you do it again, I’m gonna stab you in the face with a soldering iron iron”. Which is of course, from Joe Dirt. There are many different way we echo different forms of media. In this instance, it’s not the funny echo that’s important, it’s what we are trying to convey by echoing this in the first place.
We studied this scene obsessively, for a good many months, studying, echoing and acting just like this character. Down to the pitch changes in Christopher Walken’s voice and the mop. Literally.
Acting out the scene, becoming safer, as someone else because who we were got us drowned, kidnapped, raped, molested and tortured. We had to become other people in our adoptive home, to literally, survive.
So there you have it, lovelies, there’s a bit more about echoing. It can be a blast, as most of our really spot on echo’s are comedy. What’s even more fun is when someone says “Do that again!”. DiD isn’t all horror and there are times (Sometimes, just slivers) of levity when it comes to living as other people.
We will try an echo with you as a gift for coming here and spending your time with us when it could have been spent elsewhere, thank you, from Mark, Mike and Katy, from all of us.
This is how we are feeling right now. Katy, is dominant and she, too, is really hurting right now.
M and K